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04.28.20 | 811 am i've had to do a lot of introspection to help me make sense of where i am at currently and to try to gain some semblance of objectivity about my situation. i did really love him. it was real. i don't know when it changed, exactly. i don't know when the rush and the need to touch his skin and hear his voice gave way to dull resentment. for a very long time, i thought i could make those feelings reappear. i know myself. all it takes for me is some pretty words. i'm a sucker for sweet sentiments. but he doesn't feel like saying them and i'm not sure i could believe them coming from him anymore, anyway. maybe there is such a thing as love that doesn't fade. maybe there's such a thing as romance that grows and changes with time, without dying. but if there is, i've not seen it. i guess i'm destined to chasing my next romantic high like the love junkie i am. or maybe i could learn to love myself and that could be enough.
i'd rather forget the days we spent than try to stay afloat in shallow water |