04.21.20 | 1231 pm

the snow fell before the leaves (before I had a chance to tell you what this means)


siggidy sigh.

i can't believe i let my hopes get up so soon after the last heartache. alas, here we are. something about those who do not learn from their mistakes...?

i saw it coming, of course. hence, the haiku written on my return to this diary. i had decided then that the risk was worth it for the rush of the moment. reading back through our text-based communications, without tone or inflection, it's so hard to be objective. maybe i misinterpreted interest and intent all along.

on another note, i grew almost desperate to get my hands on a less ephemeral copy of the Filmmaker EP 'Break This Fall.' having been streaming it non-stop on YouTube, i decided to put on my researcher hat and find some way of reaching out to the artists. a couple of them are in a newer (though also probably now disbanded/defunct) band, whose most recent label i emailed with a message for them. i got a response from one of the artists within 5 minutes, which is thrilling. beyond getting a copy of the album again, i mostly want them to know that they made fucking amazing music that remains appreciated.

and on yet another note, the ball set in motion on friday is picking up speed...